I want to be skinny!!

Like somehow, that is going to solve all my problems magically. Being skinny is not the answer and yet, it's the one thing I want most out of this life before I move onto the next.

Resisting Temptation

It's been a hard week. I realize now I shouldn't have been doing so many things that I was doing. Emotionally, I should have just put my eating on hold, instead I was still trying to control it and it just spiraled out of control.

Today, I have been inandated with snacks from various students and I've been able to resist them all. Although right now I have a homemade cupcake sitting on my desk, that might be the hardest one to resist. In a world where so many parents just buy them at the store instead of making them, I love a good homemade cupcake. Lunch was a bit much, but not way overindulged.

Tonight will be dinner on the road as I head off to Paris to see my best friend! I am getting the heck out of Dodge!!

Wednesday

I'm tired today. Two nights in a row I got in late and just didn't quite get enough sleep to keep me going. I took some iron, so I hope that will kick in and give me a bit of a boost.

This morning I had my Special K cereal with skim milk. I need to get back on path. I had some bad food in my possession and I abused it so bad. But it is all gone now, I still have some things to work through emotionally and stress...but I want to spend today staying on track. I also plan to walk this afternoon between school and bells tonight. I plan to have a small snack of fruit in the morning and a school lunch that I ordered. I brought dinner with me tonight as well as a snack for the afternoon. It's going to be hard, I've been snacking a lot lately and I am really going to cut back for today. I don't care about tomorrow or the next day...today I am going worry only about today.

Food for today

Well, I really want to be strong and stick to the path today.

I had a weak moment and had a handful of combos on the way to work this morning. But I stopped.

Then, when I got to school, I had my special K with skim milk. I have lunch planned, but I forgot to include bringing a dinner since I was going to be here through the evening for a meeting tonight. Water so far: 1 - 8oz serving.

Ok...so all morning....want to snack, want to eat...going crazy!!! Finally, it's snack time and I break it all out...I didn't finish everything, I stopped, but I ate more than I was supposed to!

Lunch was ok...hamburger, juice, tater tots and a small salad.

Journaling

I need a way of keeping track of my food. I know I need to write stuff down and see what exactly I am eating. This weekend has not been good. I've been feeling horrible and using food to try and feel better. I know it and yet, didn't want to stop myself. Especially yesterday, I really went over board.

Today:

Breakfast: raspberry coffee cake

Lunch: Wendy's - 2 jr. bacon cheeseburgers, small fry

Dinner: Mom is bringing home some Chinese. Sweet and Sour Chicken with some rice.

I am not terribly hungry, and I will have some leftovers for my dinner tomorrow night.

Water today: I have had 4 of my 8 servings of 8oz of water.

Exercise: I walked 1.5 miles around the neighborhood.